Preparing for convocation

Im actually excited. My master graduation is here and im so eager and anticipate to be on that great hall again. It most probably gonna be the only time that i feel being appreciated after long years of struggling.

So this are some of the item on that day i prepare

d. Some of it i actually bought it some time ago, but i just dry clean it and wa la... it looks new again...

First my suit, shirt and pant... (forget my neck tie there. It is Blue in color...)

Second my shoe...

Last my robe and mortarboard (rented from UNIMAS for graduation)...

Your Cool.... Jeff Out~~~

Mid Term Break

Alrght alright alright alright... It is H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.~~~~ Er... Not it is Mid Term Break and the Pig Just Flew.

I cant recall well now, has it been 4 years now since the last time i enjoy the so called mid term break, where all the students try to go wild and lecturers try to breath after a long 6 dreadful weeks of mumbling and living in an 'wild' university life of trying to figure out where is the toilet. Alright, i am not making sense.

Yeah, it is 'holiday' but im still in office marking and a lot more paperwork to be done. At least i get to sit in office and get myself fat from the constant fb and snacks that invaded my drawers (all six of them).

But, i'm glad to have a mid term break, at least for the minimal, i get to breath right and get on track again. Plus so many paper that i yet finish reading and writing so now would be a good and ample time to do it, right?

But my brain now is fill with things like 'beer', 'convo', 'beer', 'fren wedding', 'beer', etc etc... Argh~~~

I'm out, i mean, Jeff out...

What a Fruitful Weekend, dated 16/10/2011

It is, again, another fruitful weekend. I am so fruitful, im basically do nothing. Except for yesterday where i get to clean my room, collected two box of old documents and stuff from my 'masters' years and sell it off for RM1.20. Indeed, it is fruitful.

But on the contrary, i am more fruitful today. Cos i stuff myself with a bowl of laksa, two eggs, one popiah and two toasts for ma breakfast. And get to drink kopi c peng, that is not a good idea, i mean the kopi c peng. I should stick to my old regularly black coffee in the morning. And that was around 11.00am and i am still damn full till now.

To conclude this meaningless post, i want to say this.

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But again, after do some googling on some bored term, i tumbled upon this quote. He he... I think it suits me well for today.

"The life of the creative man is lead, directed and controlled by boredom. Avoiding boredom is one of our most important purposes." http://www.searchquotes.com/search/Bored/

Nearing the End

It is the most difficult part as when ur work is nearing the end. How should i say it? Em... My thesis, just left less than 5% of redo here and there before i submit for final drafting with my supervisor. What make the thing worst is laziness, tiredness and pure lazy.

For almost a week, i still left 5% to finish. When lar i can finish this. Hopefully this few day as i sit in office and really work and concentrate. Damn, it is hard to really concentrate. was hoping i have the brain of my boss now. Won't it be great. wahahaha.

And FB make the thing worst. It is so tempting and cannot resist it. Whenever i go online, the firt thing would be FB. It's like taking drugs. u must have it every single day. Damn FB.

Jee

Bad Bad Banking service from the Bank. "Am so so angry now!!"

Now this is the one that i really dislike about way of conduct. I just change my ATM card to debit card last week. Eventually i have use the card for so many years, and it finally broke down on me. So more the card is old and not really functioning well. So decided to change the card, and preferable to debit card. My real intention is that i can use the card for petrol, no need bring cash. As recommended in radio. So i did it.

Well, change the card, used it yesterday and something happen. I use it to pump RM20.01 at Petronas, and another RM20.00 at Shell station. Then last night, i decided to bank in RM50.00 to my account to reimburse back the amount in my account. So when i check my account, i notice RM400.00 gone. WTF!!! My MONEY!!!

So with a very frustrated and nervous feeling, i called up the Bank customer service 24 hours hot line. So talk to this officer on the line and tell her my problem. This happen.

1) I don know what the heck she is talking about. Most probably an Indian, or from some country, the English language broken like Hell. I need to ask her few time, "Pardon, can u repeat that again?" before i can eventually know what the heck she is talking about. The worst thing is that i need to teach her to pronounce the word properly. Damn.

2) She tell me that, if i use the card on the machine at the pump station (not at counter), automatically the petrol station will hold RM200.00 from my account. So i pump at two petrol station, so RM400.00 being hold by them. The worst thing is, this never been told by the bankers to me when i change my card, nor any call from the bank notifying me this, nor any announcement in the Radio (as i listen every single day) on such matter. What the bankers told me is that, it can be use for petrol. yes, no doubt, but if told me earlier, i will then know, and prefer use cash cos i only have few hundred in that account. And now i need cash, i don have. So i launch a report last night (customer service line) and wait for their news.

3) What so far that girl told me last night is that the rest of the money will be reimburse in to my account after 30 DAYS... Bloody hell, 30 DAYS wor. i only got RM200.00 now for petrol, food and rental. FUCK the bank lar. So Monday, i will go to the bank and clarify this. It is not my fault eventually cos they didn't tell me. And the bankers expect us (me) to ask such question when i change the card? They don even gave me any voucher on the product. How would i know what to ask? I am just a normal consumer.

4) So if they don want to reimburse the money back to my account, i will go extreme to Police report. For me, this is something like fraud. I will be happy if they told me earlier, when i change my card, on the using of the card. But, no... NOTHING been told to me. Just change for me, when i ask "can use for petrol?", they say "yes!". That's all from them.

Am so frustrated cos i have very very limited money and i have not pay my house rental. I expect to pay today, but because of the bank non-efficiency, i unable to do a lot of thing and pay my bills. If i have RM10,000.00 in the account i don mind. But i'm just a bloody hell student and i only have less than a thousand in that account, so how i gonna survive. RM400.00 for a student like me is bloody hell huge ady wor.... Damn that bank.

Morning happening - Snippets.

Well, this morning seems a bit different as the rest of the morning. Well, i mean kinda of different.

Weird call~~
Around 8am something, dunno who the heck call me up. Actually, not call, but miss call. Well, being the curious me will always call back and clarify who call and what is the matter. Not that i being stupid or something, is that it might be someone from work or of importance call me up for serious matters. But this morning no, it is a prank call. Damn.

The worst part is, when i call back, no answer. And after few minutes, that number sms me back and as me, "sapa tok?" mean who is this? come on, you call me and now you sms me and ask me who am i? So my standard reply is, "you call me this morning and you ask me who am i now?" And that number reply again and insist me to tell him/her who am i? so now a bit frustrated, so i sms back and tell that guy/gal/kid (as i now have the feeling is a prank call from a kid) that i would report to police if call me up again.

But the worst part is this, not worst lar, but funny part is this. After an hour from the last sms, i got another sms from the same number saying "RM1 PLZ". Huh? Now i really laughing my ass off. Ha ha... Don lar underestimate me, ask lar something like "RM100 PLZ". Sound more sane bah. Tiu lar.... Ha ha...

Call From Boss~~
Got a call from boss right after the prank call case. Something happen and boss can't contact Lau as Lau is the one that do the documentation. Don't really sound good, but hope that all can be settle by boss and Lau, and all goes well.

Cool dude -> Lau and Boss.

Haze~~
The worst and the most frustrating thing this morning. I really hate haze. Partly i have a very sensitive nose that can change to bad anytime the air is not clean and the temperature changes. Ok, the haze is here and i can accept that it is here. Nothing much that i can do accept not to do any open burning, right?


This is the picture that i took when i was on my way to office this morning. It is not cloudy, but hazy. Location, Kota Samarahan, Desa Ilmu, UNIMAS.

Still, what i see this morning is really frustrating and bad. It's hazy and some stupid neighbor of mine start open burning. And there is another place i saw doing the same stuff. It is something like a government training center, and they also do open burning. What the Heck? Don't this guys have little consideration of the current hazy condition and be a good Samaritan and stop open burning.

Now, it is so damn hot and hazy, my nose start bleeding for no reason again. Damn.

Not feeling really well today.

Jeff

A tribute to MJ.

Today 25th June 2009 mark the day where the 'King of Pop' passed away due to cardiac arrest, in LA.

Here were few of the best song that i love all time by MJ.

Free Willy theme song. Will you be there-MJ


Billy Jean-MJ


Earth Song-MJ


Too Bad-MJ


Remember the time-MJ


Black or White-MJ


Beat it-MJ


and many many many many more...

R.I.P. Micheal Jackson.

I'm Craving.....

I'm craving, craving, craving for McDonald lunch meal.... I'm CRAVING for it so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so MUCH......

Mothers Day, 'Love you mommy'

Today is mothers day anniversary. I was not back home, partly i'm broke with a lot of maintainence need to be done this month. Ya, i have move to a new place cos the previous house contract expired already.

Seriously, i did miss my beloved mom so much. But manage to talk to her on the phone earlier today. But most of the conversation trigger around my younger brother attitude currently. I be back to home in this week. To bring my mom to a specialist for her regular body check up. She is not feeling well and i'm very worried of it. I think apart from me and my family (dad and brothers), other people might don't care. I never heard any of my aunt and uncle ask anything about their sister, that is my mom. Sometimes, i just do not understand. Really.

She have a weak heart condition, and insomnia. And stress. I always call up mom just to let her know that i care and worried at the same time. Ask her to take care of herself when i'm not around her. Cos at the end of the day, she is the only mom that i got and i deeply and dearly love her so so much.

Still, i wanna hope all the mom in this world a 'Happy Mothers Day'. Have a blessed years ahead and always keep in good health.

Love you mom.

Current Mood.

Stressed........

Travel and Holiday, Rest... Snippet...

It is always be my dream to have a job that require me to travel a lot. I think most of the guys in my age are thinking so as well.

Well, didn't actually have much traveling since last year but did manage to get to some places and took some nice photos.

Was quite tired of the load here in office and from myself lately (for the past 1 year). I mean, i really do not have much time travel and enjoy myself. Partly be my financial. Need to help family up on the financial part so not much left every month. So try myself to do something locally that i can really enjoy myself. Like go-kart recently.

Been offered to go to Putrajaya next month for a camp organize by UUM Pribumi Investment Camp (UPIC). Be there from 15 May till 31 May. It is a win win situation for me. First, can travel and second i can learn more. Knowing that I'm a learner, so opportunity like this, i will never try to let go. Ha ha....

So be back here in June and hopefully can finish up my thesis final draft and submit it for examination. Can i manage it?

Recently also been offered by a PhD student from Cambridge an RA job. I have not replied her yet. Hope i can find someone that can do it. I mean, person that are not shy and willing to talk to different people from different background. And able to communicate in different slang. Really, hard to find people like this. I can do it, but i do not think i have much time for it. Priority is priority, right?

Really, hope after all this hustle i will be able to travel to an island with my beloved one and have a nice holiday-rest there. I like islands. I should be an islander one day. Ha ha...

Yesterday and today was actually in lazy mode. If i am hardworking enough, i can really finish draft the last two chapters in my thesis. Really... But still, lazy is lazy so better be lazy for this weekend and next Monday start all over again. Right? Ha ha...

People was saying I'm to workaholic, so i better slow down this few days. Or else, really will get a permanent head damage before i even start do my PhD. ha ha....

Jeffrey

Presentation and frustration

Tomorrow is my second time progress meeting report presentation. Am actually very very very stress and nervous. Why? Cos it might be my last time presentation if everything went well. I will be presentating my findings and that is all of my research for my masters. Stress and nervous. Hope and wish me good luck.

At the same time of stress and nervous, this stupid guy from pakistan (a PhD student), Mohsin Butt, scolded me for no reasons. Yes no reasons. He say he ask me do something but i didn't recall and i'm sure he didn't ask that to me. I'm not that forgetful yet. I told him, "i don know and i think that u don't ask me do anything."Then he start scold me with foul words. WHAT?????? What have i done? It is my wrong. If it is my wrong, please do talk properly to me.

It is not the first time he push me around and speak badly to me. Sometime, i have my own things to do. Some in a time, i don even know what date is that particular day. There is this one time, he ask me what date is that day. Seriously i don know so i told him "i have no idea". Then he start with his attitude, scolded and use fouls words. Next time i will record his speech down and prove how he eventually badly talk and treated me. Like i'm his servant. I don't care if he came from a different cultural background. He is now in Malaysia now so should follow the Malaysian way of speaking. If we offended or somehing, we will either keep it or told it with a nice way.

Me, i don keep it. No point of keeping it if it make me feel miserable.

There is a saying in Malay. "masuk kandang kambing, mengembek" Faham....

Busy 2

Will be busy froom now on. Trust me. So many stuff to do and finish up.

wait till i'm free then i start blog again.

Cheers~~~

Publication

Finally, i have publish a journal/article. It is in local journals, but hey, that a good start for my acedemic career and path.

Was quite happy about it and apparently called up my supervisor and some friend of mine telling them that i have done it, at least for a good start. Thanks to Mr. Puah for that nice opportunity to publish it. And also my dear dear boss that been there all this while.

Thsi actually boost up my mood in writting. and up to last night, i have done another two papers for publication and conference. Yeah... That's the spirit.

Well, like my boss say, more to come and more to publish. ha ha....

Happy Birthday

Today 4th of March mark the day of my mom birthday as well as mine. Well, me and my mom birthday fall on the same day. So you be thinking, at the day when my mom supposely celebrating her birthday, she gave birth to me. What a remarkable thing in my life. And that is also why i carry some of the mark that resemblence my mom. "Mom, i love you"

Didn't really also celebrate my 25th birthday. of course every birthday boy and girl hope that during their birthday, there is cake and celebration. Mine, never happen. Some more this year, with all the family financial crisis, i have even no mood to celebrate or even to think of it. I log it into this post so that in future i can look back on what my 25th birthday is all about.

But at least i got one loving step sister (currently at Miri) Jill, that still remember my birthday and have text me a birthday song to celebrate with me. Well, actually i text her first cos she is a year and a day older than me. Her birthday fall on 3rd of March. And some nice fren that give me all the best wishes. I hope i can have those best wishes happen as me and my family desperately need some miracle to happen now.

Thinking back of it, i better wish myself a "happy birthday".

Happy Birthday~~~

Depressed

I'm very very very depressed. Life ain't fair...

I wish there is 48 hours a day (Lau, 2009)

I really wish there is 48 hours a day. So i can spend more time do my work without worrying the time passes by.

Been really a busy three days. Redo and redo and redo. No, don't get confuse. I'm not complaining. It's just that i think i should have 48 hours a day to do my stuff.

So far from six chapters in my thesis i have redo three chapter, 1, 3 and 4. Still stuck at chapter 2, and 5. The hardest part of all. Hope can get more inspiration from somewhere, someone.

Arg..............hhhhh...........................

I'n not Cool~~~

Surprises and Touching Moment (2)

This morning wake up pretty early at six thirty and after groom myself up, drive all the way down to Merdeka Palace and fecth my dad and another two of his friend to breakfast and to bus terminal. They leave around 10 a.m and can see that they, especially my dad, enjoy their trip here this time.

Well, at bus terminal, i manage to have a small talk with my dad and suddenly my dad just call up my 8th uncle and say that he will be leaving today. Well, my uncle was quite sad as my dad leave and they don have much time spent together. But did notice to ask on some information on the rest of my dad siblings whereabout.

I was suprised that my 8th uncle own the Japanese Restaurant at Damai Puri Resort at Santubong. My 10th uncle work in the airport. The rest we still try to get in contact but did heard that some of my uncle already passed away. I'm sad cos i never manage to meet them. Will probably visit their graves with my family one of this days.

My 8th uncle have ask for me to go visit him and the family at Damai Puri when i'm available. Well, i will make the effort before i travel by end of this month. And most probably have house visitation during Chinese New Year. After all, we are all one family and we should keep in contact.

From 17 siblings, i have already manage to track down 2 of them. Hope everything goes well and we can have a family reunion one of these days. Hope and do wish me luck on my quest.

Cheers~~~

Suprises and Touching Moment

Yesterday was my dad visit to Kuching. Actually he is on a course organized by the state government at Merdeka Palace. Was a nice place and like it. Well, next time when i got extra money and time, will have one or two night stay there with my family. Nice ya.

Then promise my dad will bring him over to some places at Kuching last night. So we went to Boulevard. He was amazed by the sheer size of that Hypermall. So we went to park our car at ground floor (usually i do that and park there though need to pay). Once we went in the entrance from parking, my dad just pause for a while and call up a guy... "ah liang" (in Hakka). That guy replied and for that instance i saw my dad almost cried in joy. That guy was my father brother, my uncle. He ask me to greet him and in Hakka but i can't do it as i'm not at all literate in Hakka.

So the story of my family goes like this. My dad came from a broken family. My grandpa have four wives and dozens of siblings. As far as i know, my grandma was the third or last one and she is a Native (Iban in precise). So i have a mix blood then. Ha ha.... (No wonder i can drink like what, ha ha...). Ok, back to the story. So my dad have 13 brothers and my dad rank number 9 (The one that we met rank number 8 in the Jee's Family Tree). But me and my siblings never met any of them. My dad move to Sarikei at a very young age at 18 i guess, and my grandpa was at Sarikei at that moment. But at that time i think the family have already separated. By the way, my dad originally from Kuching but never back for decade. So, me and my siblings never met our grandparents and uncles and aunts.

Well actually i did met my grandma once in Sarikei. I was 16 that time and basically i don't care what is what (rebellious actually that time). So can't recall her face. I regretted that so much when think back of it.

My uncle look so much like my dad. Body size, hand, foot, neck, belly, face, height. Almost identical but just that my dad is darker and my uncle is fairer. Ha ha... But they from different mother. My dad was the third or last, i can't recall, and my uncle from the second mother. Complicated family. Both of them hug and chats and can see their eye shiver in red, like their precious diamond almost drop to the earth. I just stunt there. Can't say a single word as i really don't know what to say actually.

But there is no initiative to reunited all the siblings in my dad family by anyone (i must do the other way then, reunite). They might from different mothers, but i think that we are all family and we are close family, blood related family and should reunite at least for a dinner during Chinese New Year. I hope it will happen and if it really happen, i will try the best to get my family to meet all the siblings in my dad family and as well as their childrens that will be my cousins. Well, hope my Grandpa in Heaven will bless us and my motives here. Not for money or materials, but as a family we must unite. Or else, what Chinese New Year is for then? Right? I will do my part to reunite them all. And i'm eager to meet my close relatives. All this while, years, i only know my mom family and that's is about all. Never met any of my dad's one.

Cheers~~~~

Sick

I must confess, i'm not a robot. Was pretty sick last night and have heavy medication to stop it. Plus sleep without fan and let it sweat. This morning still feel a bit sinus and dizziness.

Well, a lot fo people ady told me, 'jeff, you're not a Robot that operate 24/7!'. Well, it's a habit ady i guess. Was sick since yesterday noon but still come to office to work. Ha ha... Should learn to slow down and see more greens. Wish me luck then.

Cheers~~~