Preparing for convocation

Im actually excited. My master graduation is here and im so eager and anticipate to be on that great hall again. It most probably gonna be the only time that i feel being appreciated after long years of struggling.

So this are some of the item on that day i prepare

d. Some of it i actually bought it some time ago, but i just dry clean it and wa la... it looks new again...

First my suit, shirt and pant... (forget my neck tie there. It is Blue in color...)

Second my shoe...

Last my robe and mortarboard (rented from UNIMAS for graduation)...

Your Cool.... Jeff Out~~~

A prayer from a teacher to the future generation

This is a personal prayer that i want to dedicate to all the young people in this world. It is a move from me so that the people of this Land of mine call Malaysia will realize, especially the politicians.

Oh God, Heavenly Father, The Almighty Father of all the Universe,

Hear my prayer,

Bless the children oh dear Father,

For how you have blessed us, providing, caring and Love, your might upon us oh Father.

Please bless our children, our future generation,

They are your sons and daughters oh Heavenly Father,

They are in vain oh Father.

Day by day we see how the children been bullied, dump, and even psychologically jeopardize by the 'strong' one oh Father,

They are weak, innocent, and above all, they only know the Love to You and their earthly father, mother, siblings and beloved families.

Oh Father, please punish those that bullied our young one Father,

The recent years of taking advantages of the young one has gone wild oh Father,

Even dragging them into the ever dirty arena of politics arena has gone out of control.

Dear Heavenly Father, i, and the all the sane people in this land do not wish to see this to happen,

We do not want our young generation future being jeopardize and been taken advantages of,

Especially by those that are in 'power',

Our Heavenly Father, we once before also a young children, naive and struggling to learn more,

Some fall, some succeed, and we all know this is how we learn,

But being taken advantages of is not acceptable at all,

We all want to learn, and sometime our curiosity may end us up in the wrong place,

But we know, given the chance to learn, we will learn and better improve ourselves,

After all, this is what the young mind should be doing.

Oh Heavenly Father, i thank You for giving the love and protection to the fortunate one,

Please also provide to the unfortunate one,

As i will do my part,

Maybe not in term of earthly money, but at a minimum, my love and care to those that need it.

Oh Heavenly Father, we thank you again for the daily bread you given to us,

May these daily bread also benefits the young one,

May also Your Almighty Love shine upon those unfortunate one,

And i pray with my deepest heart that those being hurt will once again rise up,

Protect themselves, and be useful to you.

Oh Heavenly Father, punish those that goes against you Father,

That goes against Your will and plan,

Vanish such Evil from this land of us,

We do not need Evil, as we only need Your love, oh Heavenly Father,

May all your might be upon them and Your love shine upon us again.

I thank you today Father for your love,

I forgive those that sins against us as how Your only son, Jesus Christ sacrifice for our sins,

I kneel here with shame and humble,

Asking for your forgiveness.

As "Matthew 6:9-15" says,

"This, then, is how you should pray: " 'Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name, your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us today our daily bread. Forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one. ' For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

Thank you oh Heavenly Father, i pray upon Thy All Mighty,

In the name of the Father, and of the son, and the Holy Ghost,

AMEN!

Mid Term Break

Alrght alright alright alright... It is H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.~~~~ Er... Not it is Mid Term Break and the Pig Just Flew.

I cant recall well now, has it been 4 years now since the last time i enjoy the so called mid term break, where all the students try to go wild and lecturers try to breath after a long 6 dreadful weeks of mumbling and living in an 'wild' university life of trying to figure out where is the toilet. Alright, i am not making sense.

Yeah, it is 'holiday' but im still in office marking and a lot more paperwork to be done. At least i get to sit in office and get myself fat from the constant fb and snacks that invaded my drawers (all six of them).

But, i'm glad to have a mid term break, at least for the minimal, i get to breath right and get on track again. Plus so many paper that i yet finish reading and writing so now would be a good and ample time to do it, right?

But my brain now is fill with things like 'beer', 'convo', 'beer', 'fren wedding', 'beer', etc etc... Argh~~~

I'm out, i mean, Jeff out...

What a Fruitful Weekend, dated 16/10/2011

It is, again, another fruitful weekend. I am so fruitful, im basically do nothing. Except for yesterday where i get to clean my room, collected two box of old documents and stuff from my 'masters' years and sell it off for RM1.20. Indeed, it is fruitful.

But on the contrary, i am more fruitful today. Cos i stuff myself with a bowl of laksa, two eggs, one popiah and two toasts for ma breakfast. And get to drink kopi c peng, that is not a good idea, i mean the kopi c peng. I should stick to my old regularly black coffee in the morning. And that was around 11.00am and i am still damn full till now.

To conclude this meaningless post, i want to say this.

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But again, after do some googling on some bored term, i tumbled upon this quote. He he... I think it suits me well for today.

"The life of the creative man is lead, directed and controlled by boredom. Avoiding boredom is one of our most important purposes." http://www.searchquotes.com/search/Bored/

Fat

Fat. An interesting word that again and again terrorize many people around the world, young or old. You can see that around you. Yourself, your friends, even family members. But again, who like to be call fat right? Unless you look like this, please stop calling yourself or other fat.

A quick research on the web on this word shows few interesting terms. For an example, 'fat - it is merely materials accumulated in your body from consuming extra calories'. Or this 'fat - along with proteins and carbohydrates, one of the three nutrients source of energy in food. Something that your body need'.

Excessive fat at the other hand can mean a lot. The instance definition that come to my mind is energy that been accumulated too much in your body that you need to use it effectively. It is like money, you need money, the value people put in pieces of paper. Too less, you suffer, too much you need to spend it. So that in term of understanding, is fat to me. Ok, i am not making sense here.

Anyway, back to fat, was talking to a friend, girl obviously, that she is terrorize with this word. I reckon that she went through a lot to be in the state of who she is today. I saw her now as sexy, even though i don't think she agree with me on this. But here again, imagine how much damage that this word can do to a girl. I personally don't care people calling me fatso or stuff, cos i personally think that im ok. I'm 173cm, 80kg and im earning more than most of my friends does. What she need now is not people say she is thin or what. She personally need someone that care, accept her thought and support her.

I would say this to her, 'You think you are fat, yeah, i agree with you cos that is what you think. But let me tell you from another perspective. You are my inspiration. You see, you told me you are fat previously and still think that you are now. And if last time you are 70kg, and now you are 45kg, my God, you are a living inspiration not only to me but people around you. And personally i think that is sexy. Cos i see now you walk in full confidence and pride. It is ok to think that sometime you are fat, but also think from another angle, how much have you accomplished. Then, you will realize that you are not bad. But i'm not saying you are perfect, cos you are not.'

Yeah, that basically what i gonna say to this friend of mine. And personally, i dont think we should be anyway terrorized by this word. Again, it is just another thing that our body need and maybe sometime it is too much. So if it is too much, get rid of it then. Simple right?

Jeff Out...

Graduation 2011

12 days from now, i will be again conferred in UNIMAS. And this time it is for my Master. If you are reading my blog, that i self-proclaimed to be a good one, i finished my Master officially 1 and a half year ago. Plus minus.

This time, it gonna happen here at DeTAR Putra Unimas, our very own new multi-function hall. Am i excited? Yes i am!

This hall, as i been told, can accommodate up to 4000 people at one time, or more, depending on the arrangement done. It was officiated few months back and if you read the local news, it was in Borneo Post. http://www.theborneopost.com/2011/09/06/unimas-needs-boost-to-become-a-golden-university/

Enough of the hall thingy. Alright, with the convocation coming soon, i will officially become another graduate ofUNIMAS. Whereas this time, it is a personal pride to me and another of my friend from Pakistan. If there is no changes, he will be the first being conferred in this new hall and me being the second, marking yet another history in the making of UNIMAS.

And i think the proudest people would be my Supervisor, Associate Professor Dr. Ernest Cyril de Run. His very first single hand supervised PhD student (Mohsin from Pakistan) and yours truly me (Masters by Research) will be graduating. No doubt that he is capable. I recall that i am a person that know nothing, and now, me and Mohsin are proudly stating that we are in someway, the expert in our particular field.

As for me, i am another researcher doing on Sales Promotion in Malaysia and till date manage to come out with few prominent papers and chapter in books on Sales Promotion from Malaysia, Indonesia and Thailand perspective. And of cause, there is still more to come.

The most recent one is another chapter in a book that is schedule to be available somewhere next year. It was written by me and Ernest (as this how is how i call my supervisor nowadays) two years ago and it is a part of my Master Thesis as well. To be honest, i am quite proud of this accomplishment. And saying that, i need to publish more, not to prove to people, but to make myself more competent in what i am doing now.

I really need to thank my supervisor, Ernest, on this. Too much that i need to say or want to say. But, a simple 'Thank you Prof Ernest' will do for now, i hope.

Alright, you're cool. Jeff out.

Blog

Being young and naive, i have made my head spinning like crazy. Behind is all the left-overs of my life. Good and bad and for me, i will cherish every moment of it.

Now, im on my right track again. Being a true academician, writing and publishing whenever i can and capable of.

After a long 1 year, i finally on my track again and manage to finish a conference paper on a new topic me and my co-authors are currently doing. I spent solid two day in writing and writing and finally, DONE! 10 pages in total and yeah... And will work on a more comprehensive one, rewrite and publish in Emerald if we can. Get peer reviewed.

I'm cool~~~ You're cool~~~

Sensitivity... eeewwwww.....

OK, i've been asking myself. "Am i too sensitive?" Seriously, am i? The recent events in office have shown the other side of me. The ke po side. and of cause the sensitive side. I care so much on what people think of me rather than what i am doing and what i can do.

Aren't that the correct way, do what you need to do and care lesser on other opinion on you? But, haiya... i care so much... Like a sissy.

As i can recall, not only it happen recently, but all this while. From high school till date. I think it has become a habit. A bad one.

At times i always think and tell myself, what i want to show to others? Am i who i am, aren't it suppose to be that way? And now im a lecturer and in society, a lot of times people is looking at me as noble (but i rejected the whole idea i am noble). So what i want to prove? Or why i am so sensitive? What the point being sensitive?

I can advise people not to be sensitive and hope to cope up, but when it come to myself, i can advise myself. At times i have no self confidence at all.

But again, this is life and i need to get used to it. Get used to people talk at my back. At the end of the day, it is not something that i can control, aren't it?

You're cool....

Mummy operation

Last week was a very busy week and worrying week indeed for my family. Mummy have this Thyroids on her neck for some time already, and after years or struggling (mum) to go or not to go, she finally decided. But still the process is long witted. Check and check and check then refer to this doctors, then check an check and check again. The process goes on for a year. Oh well, what do you expect from public institutions.

Then finally, doctors say yes and can operate. So i took a long week for me to travel back, ad-mist Gawai, so drink and drink for days before finally send mummy to hospital last week Tuesday and her operation on Wednesday.

I swear to God, if i need to, i don't want to go hospital. I hate the feeling waiting for mum to come out from the operation room. Longgggg 6 hours, where i full with worries and worries and worries... So worried what would happen to mummy, my only beloved mummy...

But thank God, a very successful operation and after three day, she being discharge from the ward and now she is recovering at home. Fuh~~~ What a relieve.... Now im back in office. And f*cking dammit need to face this b*tch. I don't know what with this lady, keep on finding people problem and report to the booses. Cilaka you lah~~~ !!! Nah!!!

I think she got an issue, Mental issue.

By the way, i resigned from my current company last few days and joined Swinburne. Officially, i will jump over there coming Mid August. Wooohhhhooooo.....

Ok, Jeff out. You're cool...

The end of my master education

3 years and 4 months ago today i started my journey on my first higher education apart from my first degree. I registered under Associate Professor Dr. Ernest Cyril de Run as a master by research student and now im a graduate already. If you ask me am i proud of what i have achieve, yes i am. But it is just starting of another chapter of my new life as a master grad.

It is not easy, it is indeed not easy at all. From envy to birocracy to office politics. Im suppose to finish a year ago and yet only two weeks ago i get the letter from UNIMAS on my award of my degree. 24 September 2010 i passed my viva voce and pass my master by principal. Only two weeks ago they finally awarded me with the degree. Yet, i just started and two three days ago i have finalize my PhD proposal and i will run this journey again, even i know what will happen again. History again will repeat itself. But that is what i want in my life.

I do not know how much gratitude i owe to my supervisor. Kn

owing him since 2005 till date, he have teach me a lot. From education/ academic to life. He live a good life with a lot of ups and downs and that also teach me to value my life and the people around me.

I have lost so many for the last three years as compare to my classmate, UNIMAS marketing class of 2004-2007. But at the same time i gain more as well. I owe my family and good friends around me a lot on this. I do now know how to repay

them but, but i know i must do better in order not letting down myself and those that believe in my fight. I have proved to my Uncle that i can do it. He did try to stop me once, but im glad i didnt listen to him. He did play a big part of my earlier days in sarikei but now no more. I live my own life, he is not invited in.

Its finally a relieve and again i will challenge myself i

n a different scenario this time, to be the expert in sales promotion in Malaysia, then Asia. By God willings i will run this journey again. My target, by the age of 30, finish my PhD study. Now i have my new family, i will run the journey with them.

Blah Blah Blah 2011...

April is here and it should be spring in some of the four seasons country. For me, it is just Seasons Green Tea and Soya Bean with less sugar, accompanying me in this blog. In this blog requires a lot of my saliva as i will bla bla bla...

So, what so great, ereccccttttiiiiioooonnnn just over with more Rocket ejaculated... from 8 now 12. I think so, correct me if im wrong. And for the "Sake of God", no more political stories. (Goes to myself as well". It seriously have to stop.

Was reading a blog post by http://www.loyarburok.com (http://www.loyarburok.com/human-rights/express-yourself/better-dont-mess-it-up-this-time/), i have my enlightenment. Indeed it is true, people in the rural dont care. What they care is the food on their table at the end of the day. Seriously, they are disconnected from the world. I think RFS (radio free sarawak) is a good alternative for them as they broadcasr in SW radio frequency for the rural people of Sarawak, by Sarawakian in London. But they are seriously disconnected, and guess what, the website is block by some cyber troopers.

I think the should be a movie out soon

Title: Sarawak Cyber Troopers.

Sypnosis: How to block RFS (Radio Free Sarawak), SR (Sarawak Report) and Malaysiakini.

Actors: Asshole(s) in Malaysia (perhaps outside Malaysia)

And bla bla bla... (well, bla saja lar as it is Sunday and i'm lazy marking my students exam. It is tougher than politics in Malaysia you know).

Just get a crib for myself. A big one at Muara Tuang. So i gonna stay in Sarawak for LONG TIME!!! WTF!!!! But i lioke......

Well it is still just land... Now its like making baby... Will be fully develop in 2013 (if im still alive).

And bla bla bla... Seriously i gonna stop...