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Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Life back at the old days. Do i study?

The old days sure is good. Thinking back of it, it is kinda nostalgic with the bitter and sweet taste in it. Life back then was simple enough. Wake up early in the morning for school, go to class to continue to sleep and wait for recess so can go to juniors' block and find some nerd to bully. Then head back to class just to continue sleep. By now you'll be asking, "don't u study?". The answer is nope. I never done that. Well, i do la, only when my PK1 (vice head master) come and chase after me or put me in detention class. he he...

Way back in form two i was an excellent student. I don really study but i know all my subject well. Kinda have the feeling that i'm a genius back then. With no study i got 4 a's and 3 b's for my PMR. Even during form two, i was an athlete. Back then, all the bad and naughty boys were athlete. And me, a 5000 meter long distance runner and i still hold the record now. I think my ability to run and stand the tiredness due to everyday running from block to block when my PK1 or PKhem chase after me.

Form three, still an excellent student holding the record of number 1 in class from form 2 till i finish form 3. Hard to believe le. But still, everyday being rotan due to heavy duty nakal and bullying other juniors, and also at that level i have learn to smoke and fight with seniors. hard to believe le. My record for getting demerit is around 250 to 300 point in a year and never been suspended. Now that i never believe. Why? Still, I'm in the list of SMK St Anthony most nakal boy at that time.

Reach form four would be a bit tense for me as i was in the science stream and in the best class. I tell u, that kill my reputation as a nakal boy and my academic reputation. Not only i cannot do stupid things in class like try to hook up with my girl class mates, i don even been given the chances to sleep in class. Reason? All the teacher that teach us is some kind of discipline teacher. I suffer like hell, yet feel happy cos i still got number 1 in class, but from the back this time. Ha ha. And my seat was located at the very end of the class with no girls unwillingly seat at my side. I never know why. Then cos my bad reputation and discipline matters in school, i bought the good reputation of that class into the drain. Once a dream class to be in have become the most unfavorable class in SMK St Anthony history. Cos i always got less than 10 in class for all exams. Some kind of boycott from us from the back that time, well only two of us actually. Then my PK1 can't stand me and another buddy of mine in that class, i was transfer to the most bad science class when i reach form 5. That is when the fun started. I mean really.

Class subject - 50% of the class sleep. There even some like 'Arnold' and 'light bulb' that can sleep by only placing their head on the side wall of the class. Some even making pools of infected saliva on the desk. Me -> Making my back seat as combat station for those that wanna have wrestling in class. I never participate as i'm of smaller size in that class.

Class activities - 80% of the class will always at school basketball field for some interesting basketball+wrestling matches whenever any of the teacher doesn't come to class. I always have the feeling that our teacher escape from coming to our class by hiding somewhere like toilets and some bushes. Why le? We so fun in class and always play jokes - on our teachers. Ok, back to the games. It will only stop when three person come. first our very own discipline teacher assign specially for our class disciplinary problem. Second, our PK1 that like to rotan me since form 1, and apparently some of the other guys in my class. Third and not least our super singer teacher, PKhem, that is our chemistry teacher back at form 4. Three of them will always bring their rotan and chase after us whenever see us fooling around during class hour. Sometime even during recess when find us somewhere at juniors' block, either flirting with girls or bullying some nerd.

Class performance - ooh wow, we are always the best class, dream class to be in. We do our own project in class like eating sunflower seeds or groundnuts. Art carving that never finish even after a year. Rearing invisible fishes with our saliva on our desk. And shoot range practice with only rubber string and pages of our homework book. The target, some nerd at front seat.

After class activity - Light up a cigarette right after pass out of school gate. Gather with buddy after have lunch at home and play gangster. Well, i eventually become one of the gangster members at that time. Gamble at some park at some deserted housing area. Having our regular sweet tea that cost only fifty cent at our regular coffee at the same park that we gamble. Play snooker with the ambition of becoming the next 'Jimmy Y - World Champion at that time'. Night time will do some activities like round round the town with our motor bikes. No petrol, go back ask mom for money for petrol. But always remember to ask more for rokok 'Rave'. but never declare that i smoke or the rest of my life will be grounded at home, no bike, no money.

Now, do i study? Answer = Nope. SPM almost failed. That is the time i really freak out. Future at stake. But manage to get in form six at July, the last intake. Initially still naughty but luckily enough met my ex there, at form six. She kinda change my life as i don fool around much. How come? cos i spend most of my time at her place. So where got time for fooling around.

STPM, still not good but still manage to get into UNIMAS. And then is when i change. I don know how but i eventually change to a good guy. Go to church and no more bully bully people case. Go to class, get the best grades and do the best for assignments and thesis. And wa la, now at Masters level in UNIMAS also. and plan for PhD soon. Wow...

Now do i study? Answer = Yes, only now.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Presentation and frustration

Tomorrow is my second time progress meeting report presentation. Am actually very very very stress and nervous. Why? Cos it might be my last time presentation if everything went well. I will be presentating my findings and that is all of my research for my masters. Stress and nervous. Hope and wish me good luck.

At the same time of stress and nervous, this stupid guy from pakistan (a PhD student), Mohsin Butt, scolded me for no reasons. Yes no reasons. He say he ask me do something but i didn't recall and i'm sure he didn't ask that to me. I'm not that forgetful yet. I told him, "i don know and i think that u don't ask me do anything."Then he start scold me with foul words. WHAT?????? What have i done? It is my wrong. If it is my wrong, please do talk properly to me.

It is not the first time he push me around and speak badly to me. Sometime, i have my own things to do. Some in a time, i don even know what date is that particular day. There is this one time, he ask me what date is that day. Seriously i don know so i told him "i have no idea". Then he start with his attitude, scolded and use fouls words. Next time i will record his speech down and prove how he eventually badly talk and treated me. Like i'm his servant. I don't care if he came from a different cultural background. He is now in Malaysia now so should follow the Malaysian way of speaking. If we offended or somehing, we will either keep it or told it with a nice way.

Me, i don keep it. No point of keeping it if it make me feel miserable.

There is a saying in Malay. "masuk kandang kambing, mengembek" Faham....

Sunday, March 22, 2009

21st Century

21st Century....
We are becoming lesser by the day
*Our communication - Wireless
*Our dress - Topless
*Our telephone - Cordless
*Our cooking - Fireless
*Our youth - Jobless
*Our food - Fatless
*Our labour - Effortless
*Our conduct - Worthless
*Our relation - Loveless
*Our attitude - Careless
*Our feelings - Heartless
*Our politics - Shameless
*Our education - Valueless
*Our follies - Countless
*Our arguments - Baseless
*Our Job - Thankless


*Our Salary - Very Very less
*Our emails - useless!

Friday, March 20, 2009

Big N Tasty

Well well well, today we talk about FOOD...... And my favourite, BURGERS......

There none burger that i have tasted as good as this;


It was so good and tasty that i have nothing in particular to comment or do not even dare to criticise this wonder creation of McDonald. Comparatively, it might not be as 'big' as McDonald Quater Pounder, but hey, it taste goooooooooddddddddddddd.......

The beef, the vege, the sos. Emh emh emh....

I can't just resist of not having it. Not having it is like feeling your are a guy that don't have guts.... See the beef, see the content, it just so watery and juicy...

And i have a confession to make here. I have fall in love to Big N Tasty. There not other burger like Big N Tasty. "pa ra pa pa pa, i'm loving it"......

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Posts... and blah blah blah.....

I did notice that most of my post is on what i think, what my mood are in now and currentlywhere am i (in term of feeling and perspectives). It might sound annoying to some people but really, i am an optimist person. And kind of annoying when you guys read and read and read and it's all about my mood. Hey, i am annoyed of myself.

Such things happen maybe due to what currently i'm experiencing now. As you guys/girls know, i am currently trying to finish up my thesis as soon as possible. Yes, it seems possible, but in the mist of possibilities that i will finish my thesis, there is things here and there. Holes here and there to be filled up. Gap here and there that need to be occupy. Rubbish here and there that need to be completely clean up. And all this eventually effect my mood and perspective at that particular time.

I know that my ability is limited. But at the same time, i am trying to be as competent as possible. Saw in Dr ernest and Dr Evan. Yet, knowing to be on top or even as same level as them will takes me time and a lot and lot and lot of effort. But seriously, i want to achieve that. Finish my PhD before 30 like what Evan have done. Be critical thinking like what Dr Ernest is. And at the same time, remain as me that is who i am.

All those aims and goals seems possible and will be possible if i put my heart and mind in it. Yet, there is a lot of other commitments that i need to bear. Family, financially they really need my help. As i am the only one in my family that are succeeding in my career and life. Hope and Hope and Hopes are upon me to finish my study, and be the first Dr. in my family blood line. Seems like, "what the heck?" right? But that is "chinese" and typically my "chinese" family background and mind set.

Yet, so reluctant to do all that. Would need more support and good examples from people around me. Only from there i can really suceed in whatever and wherever that i am now.

It is only on such condition that i can set better example to my juniors and others outside there that are willingly to listen and LISTEN. What i should do now is, set my mind straight, be open to criticism and criticism, be less optimistic, more independent that normal me, and yeah, set my life straight up again.

Monday, March 16, 2009

Busy 2

Will be busy froom now on. Trust me. So many stuff to do and finish up.

wait till i'm free then i start blog again.


Friday, March 13, 2009


Busy. My boss is busy. So many to do, so many to read. Well a sign of successful and promotion soon.

And for the time being waiting for his sweet time to read and mark my chapters, i will try to do stuff like;
1. Write papers
2. Write papers
3. Write papers

It seems like only write papers oh... Well ok;
4. Write papers but for conference
5. Write papers for publication locally and internationally
6. Write chapters in book on sales promotion
7. Find people that interested in writting book on sales promotion with me
8. Prepare for upcoming progress report meeting
9. Train new people on research
10. Write more papers on sales promotion in Malaysia and South East Asia

And most importantly;
1.1 Finish up my thesis
1.2 Do all necessary correction
1.3 Review and review and review
1.4 Get a job
1.5 Continue with writting PhD proposal


Thursday, March 12, 2009


Finally, i have publish a journal/article. It is in local journals, but hey, that a good start for my acedemic career and path.

Was quite happy about it and apparently called up my supervisor and some friend of mine telling them that i have done it, at least for a good start. Thanks to Mr. Puah for that nice opportunity to publish it. And also my dear dear boss that been there all this while.

Thsi actually boost up my mood in writting. and up to last night, i have done another two papers for publication and conference. Yeah... That's the spirit.

Well, like my boss say, more to come and more to publish. ha ha....

Monday, March 9, 2009


I must admit, it's holiday and currently i feel bored. Nope, since few days back. Travelling gonna cost me bomb as now i'm damn broke. Yeah, u heard me.

Holiday would mean something if u have something on hand and in mind that u can do. I just have worries and worries and worries. So sit back in my office, do my thesis, finish it and submit to my boss. If i go somewhere now, for sure those stuff won't finish by itself, right.

Also working on my CV before i apply for job next month. Need to get job and finish my master soon. Financially, i need it a lot to support not only me but also my family. And also ease my brother burden of supporting the family expenses.

I remember my boss words, don rush. So i not rushing now, just preparing. So prepare CV, get some contact at some places and apply in. If got job, can nego with them when i could start, and that will be when i submitted my thesis of course. So it is not rushing, just planning ahead. Better than when i finish my masters, i still don got any job yet right? Not rushing, by preparing.

Your Cool~~~
I'm Cool~~~

Friday, March 6, 2009

The Teacher and The Boy

A first grade teacher, Ms Neelam (age 28) was having trouble with one of her students. The teacher asked, "Boy, what is your problem?"

The Boy answered, "I'm too smart for the first grade. My sister is in the third grade and I'm smarter than she is! I think I should be in the third grade too!"

Ms Neelam had enough. She took the Boy to the principal's office. While the Boy waited in the outer office, the teacher explained to the principal what the situation was. The principal told Ms Neelam he would give the boy a test and if he failed to answer any of his questions, he is to go back to the first grade and behave. Ms Neelam agreed. The Boy was brought in and the conditions were explained to him. The Boy agreed to take the test.

Principal : What is 3 x 3?
Boy : 9
Principal : What is 6 x 6?
Boy : 36

And so it went with every question the principal thought a third grader should know. The principal looked at Ms Neelam and told her: "I think the Boy can go to the third grade." Ms Neelam asked the principal if she can ask the Boy some of her own questions. Both the
principal and the Boy agreed.

Ms Neelam : What does a cow have four of that I have only two of?
Boy : Legs!
Ms Neelam : What is in your pants that you have but I do not have?
Boy : Pockets!
Ms Neelam : What starts with a C and ends with a T, is hairy, oval, delicious and contains Thin whitish liquid?
Boy : Coconut!
Ms Neelam : What goes in hard and pink then comes out soft and sticky?

The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer, the Boy was taking charge.

Boy : Bubblegum!
Ms Neelam : What does a man do standing up, a woman does sitting down and a dog does on three legs?

The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer...

Boy : Shake hands
Ms Neelam : Now I will ask some, "Who am I" sort of questions, okay?
Boy : Yep!
Ms Neelam : You stick your poles inside me. You tie me down to get me up. I get wet before you do.
Boy : Tent
Ms Neelam : A finger goes in me. You fiddle with me when you're bored. The best man always have me first.

The Principal was looking restless, a bit tensed and took one large Patiala Vodka peg.

Boy : Wedding Ring
Ms Neelam : I come in many sizes. When I'm not well, I drip. When you blow me, you feel good.
Boy : Nose
Ms Neelam : I have a stiff shaft. My tip penetrates. I come with a quiver.
Boy : Arrow!
Ms Neelam : What word starts with a "F" and ends in "K" that means lot of heat and excitement?
Boy : Firetruck!
Ms Neelam : What word starts with a "F" and ends in "K" and if u dont get it u have to use ur hand?
Boy : Fork!
Ms Neelam : What is it that all men have one, it is longer on some men than on others, the pope doesn't use his and a man gives it to his wife after they're married?
Ms Neelam : What part of the man has no bone but has muscles, has lots of veins, like pumping and is responsible for making love?
Boy : HEART!

The principal breathed a sigh of relief and said to the teacher:
"Send this Boy to College! I got the last ten questions wrong myself!"

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Things you can do under a TREE...

There are few things that we can do under a tree. You can do it either yourself, with your partners or even in a group. Here is some tricks. Three of it actually.

For single person, one person only, you can:
1) Just sit under the tree with a nice book and have a real nice relaxing time reading. This what most of the western people do.
2) You can play carving oon the bulk of the tree and hope that the one that you admire would see your carving. Carve some love, or names or message, something like that. Done in most love stories that i watch. Ew....
3) Play Isaac Newton. Discover a new theory on gravity. Isaac Newton have done it, so you beter think of something new under a tree.

For partners or two people;
1) Dating. This most of the people iin Malaysia do. dating under a tree. Fascinating actually.
2) Picnic. Can plus a dog so look like some love movie stuff. Romantic and Ew.......
3) Play Bollywood movie, Dancing, singing and going around that tree. Fascinating.

For groups or bunch of people;
1) Play catch (Police and Theives). This what i always do when i'm eight years old, with my gangs, under a tree.
2) Organize a wedding. This would be interesting. I hope during my wedding, i can do it under a tree. US style. He he...
3) Organize a meeting. But need to get permit and full access from court, police and our YB's. Meaning, GET PERMISSION.....

That is some stuff you and your partners and friends can do under a tree. So no more "under the sea" slogan from Disney, but "under a tree" slogan from Malaysia.

Your Cool~~~

Wednesday, March 4, 2009


After ten remarkable years, i now officially saying that i'm quitting SMOKING. But will not do the drastic way of no smoke at one goal... As yesterday i try one whole day no smoke, i end up having heavy running nose and nausea and headache. This what we call addicted.

So together with me we together quit smoke for a better world. ha ha... Like i care only. Ha ha....

And somemore i promise mom i gonna quit. So quit la.

I'm Cool~~~ *no idea what to write for my thesis anymore.*

Happy Birthday

Today 4th of March mark the day of my mom birthday as well as mine. Well, me and my mom birthday fall on the same day. So you be thinking, at the day when my mom supposely celebrating her birthday, she gave birth to me. What a remarkable thing in my life. And that is also why i carry some of the mark that resemblence my mom. "Mom, i love you"

Didn't really also celebrate my 25th birthday. of course every birthday boy and girl hope that during their birthday, there is cake and celebration. Mine, never happen. Some more this year, with all the family financial crisis, i have even no mood to celebrate or even to think of it. I log it into this post so that in future i can look back on what my 25th birthday is all about.

But at least i got one loving step sister (currently at Miri) Jill, that still remember my birthday and have text me a birthday song to celebrate with me. Well, actually i text her first cos she is a year and a day older than me. Her birthday fall on 3rd of March. And some nice fren that give me all the best wishes. I hope i can have those best wishes happen as me and my family desperately need some miracle to happen now.

Thinking back of it, i better wish myself a "happy birthday".

Happy Birthday~~~

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Life. Debt. Survival.

Life is not fair. This this the term that i always heard. Though sometimes i don really agree on that but circumstances happen make me think twice again and apparently i agree on it. But there is still a phase to it. Get used to it.

What happen and what gonna happen is the thing that we cannot really talk much and control much. What can we do is prevent and face the problem. Not avoiding. It might be hard, but as long as youu put your heart into it, well, everything will have solution.

Been back last friday when i got a sudden call from my elder brother. It's regarding family financial status. So rush back using bus at 4.00 p.m. that afternoon as well and reach Sarikei at 10.00 p.m. The reason that i rush back is that i need to be there to assist my brother and work our brain out to find solutions. It is only when both of us are clear in mind and soul, then we can find some solution to our problem. So after settle everything, i take boat from Sarikei yesterday noon. Reach Kuching at 4.30 p.m. I need to come back early to settle my work here as i have promise my Supervisor that i will settle the load that been given to me and apparently settle my thesis.

A person life is about paying debt, directly or indirectly. But exclude those rich buggers that have YB to support and help them to get more money from the poor Rakyat that already poor. But from this debt, we have the choices to survive. It is called the survival of the fittest. Well, theo rich people, mark my word, cannot even stand being poor for a day. Cos they are useless. But those that rich and usefull, they are the most respectful people and this people wont show off. Unlike those that play Golf beside UNIMAS at 7.00 a.m. Sport? Nay... It about showing that how much money and how free i am.

And my uncle are useless piece of crap.

I'm not Cool~~~
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